Moving on & Facing fears..

Hey beauties! 

Sorry it's been a while, I've had some things going on.. But I'm gonna jump straight into this deep pool of words! 

I've recently come out of a relationship with someone who made me happy for the majority of a year. I'm not gonna lie, it came as a shock to me.. Caught me off guard and threw me to the cold concreted ground, confused and a little scared. 

I've battled for some time with some demons which have caused me to become detached from the world around me on an emotional level. It's difficult to describe.. but imagine being surrounded by people who love you.. But not being able to appreciate them the way you probably should. It's gets a lonely place when you can't escape your inner fears! It's easy to pretend everything is ok and carry on like life's peachy.. But tell me, what does this achieve when the going gets tough? 

I realise now that happiness is not something you gain from other people, it's something you get from yourself, your accomplishments and your doing. I'm not saying people don't help, of course my friends and family make me happy.. But sometimes when they aren't there and there is nobody to fill the gap it's difficult to remain that way. Especially when your biggest fear is people leaving you..

I've decided that from now on I'm gonna put me first, I've lived the past 4 years catering to the needs of people who disappear. Taking a handful of good memories and a broken heart from the experiences. I don't regret this though, I'm thankful that I have been loved and loved in return. Who doesn't want that? I don't feel sad or feel any regret anymore, just because something doesn't work out, doesn't mean you should live a lifetime with grudges. I did that for a while, I held my grudges. I believed that because I was hurting they should hurt 10x worse, but they shouldn't. They deserve to be happy too, like we all do. 

Letting go is hard, you've got to be brave and go it alone. My mum told me relationships are a learning curve, you learn to realise what you do and don't deserve. I'm not the oldest or the wisest girl in the world but I've had two very different and very meaningful relationships with two great guys, they just weren't great for me. Blaming yourself for a failed relationship is second nature, but there's no blame if it doesn't work out.. Especially if you tried. 

You should fall in love, you should get your heartbroken and you should get back up, smile and do it all over again until you meet the right person for you. 

Letting go is the best thing you can do for yourself, no matter how many 'what if's' you have about a past relationship that won't make them be 'the one' for you. If they were, they would have never left in the first place. Don't be scared though because I can guarantee you, someone is somewhere, but for now, learn to love yourself. 

I hope in some way, this may help someone. I'm a little scared to post this but I'm facing my fears, why don't you face yours with me? In the words of Bob Marley: don't worry, about a thing, 'cause every little thing.. Is gonna be alright. 

Thanks for reading beauties.. Il be back with a body shop haul and review soon! 

Stefi xoxo 

Illamasqua Haul..

Hey Beauties!

I am crazy obsessed with makeup at the minute, even more so than usual. So the other day my fingers slipped and I ended up on Illamasqua's website.. Oops. They have a sale on some of their products so it was kinda rude not to get involved, right? 

Here is what I picked up.. 

 

A box full of goodies! I cannot wait to try these out. I think a tutorial/make up look is in order, yes?! 

This beautiful eyeshadow is in the shade 'burst'. It is a deep blue colour with turquoise undertones. It's not something I would usually go for but I thought it was the perfect opportunity to try something new out with it being £6.20 reduced from £15.50.. Bargain. 

I have been really loving purples and lilacs for my eyes, I think they look beautiful with browns to create a smokey eye. This pretty little number is the shade 'cancan' and was also £6.20! 

Blusher time! Look how bright this is.. It is actually more purple toned than pink but my camera hasn't picked it up.. Boo! But you can still see how pretty the colour is, I think it may be my go to summer blush. This was £10.75 from a whopping £21.50!

 

I got another blusher in the shade 'peaked'. It's a velvet blusher and it comes out like a cream but finishes like a powder.. I think this would work well with a bb cream for a natural 'I'm wearing makeup, but I don't want you to know' look, if you know what I mean.. and for £10.75 I can afford to look like I am not wearing makeup.

I also picked up an illamasqua medium pencil in Uncanny which was only £5.50! This works as an eyeliner and an eyebrow pencil nothing like a 2 in 1!

 

How beaut is this metal cream pigment please? This is in the colour 'Solstice'. It was originally £17.50 and I picked it up for £7.00..

 

 

My final purchase is possibly the new love of my life, it is the Illamasqua lipstick in shade 'Posture'. It is just so perfect and purple! I was lusting over it for a while and as soon as pay day came around I added it straight to my basket.

 

If you would like to see a makeup look featuring these products I will get that done for you ASAP, just comment and let me know. Thank you for reading beauts!

Don't forget you can keep up with me via my Instagram where I post daily makeup and outfit looks!

 

Stefi xoxo

Aspirations..

Hey Beauties..

I'm getting those 'end of uni nerves' with me having less than 5 months left.. What am I meant to do with myself?!  It's such a scary thought not being able to use the 'I'm a student' excuse anymore.

I'm lucky enough to be blogging for the brand English Girl now and I absolutely love it and I would do blogging full time given the opportunity, I mean what's better than talking about fashion and makeup? Especially when the only thing I want to do is Fashion or Makeup.. You know? Blogging is what I love and is what I want to do professionally one day because I don't want to be stuck doing something my heart isn't in, so I guess It's time to fix up and make these final months count. 

Positive vibes on the blog this evening, I found this quote on Pinterest.. It inspired me so fingers crossed it inspires you too!

Take a leap of faith, you never know where is may take you.. Learn from your failures and embrace your successes. Anything is possible!

Stefi xoxo

I've been called by the the disco ball, follow it with me..

 

Hey Beauties,

 

I haven't been the best blogger recently, but as you can imagine I have been busy during the festive season doing nothing but WORK, whether it be because of my job or because of Uni.. So I think a little update is in order, yes?

 

So I received a very exciting email in December from an up and coming brand which I was lusting over, on their Instagram due to the hypnotic prints on their 'disco' garments. A women called Michelle, creator and mastermind behind the brand English Girl asked me.. yes me! If I would be interested in doing some blogging for them. How could I pass up on this kind of opportunity? I just couldn't, I love nothing more than an adventure and when it involves fashion, well, lets just say bet your bottom dollar I ain't gonna say no!

 

So anyway, in a nut shell I was asked to put together some ideas for herself ready to reveal tomorrow and fingers crossed, you will be able to follow me on this adventure along side the rest of the team behind it.

 

The clothing is due to launch end of February/Early March time and their S/S collection is a paisley dream, a print synonymous with their brand. The print on their garments tells a story and that's what has made me fall in love, there is so much passion and culture that has gone into the print, it's almost as if you're wearing a short story!

 

Here's a few sneak peaks of some of the things you can look forward too..

 

 

Exciting, yes?! Keep your eyes pealed, I've got a feeling you won't want to miss a detail.

 

Stefi xoxo