To the person reading this,
Today I am writing this for us.
Do you ever feel like you have just had enough? You just wanna quit everything and fuck the world off? Because I do!
For as long as I remember I have suffered with what I can only describe as crippling anxiety and depression. I have tried a million routes in hopes I would find a solution, but I still have a million more to try. Now I am not saying I am depressed all of the time, because like everyone I have my good days, but I just wanted to reach out to those like me who have lived while fighting a silent battle with their own minds to let you know you can do it.
We find ourselves tip-toeing around our problems in fear we are burdening people with our issues. When we do find a molecule of courage to open up, usually the reply we get is ‘think positive’ but if you aren’t in the right headspace, that is only going result in you scrambling in your own thoughts searching for something, anything, positive; instead you’re faced with all of your fears, worries and woes. So I beg, please, anyone reading this who knows of someone going through some shit not to say that but instead just offer a judgment-free ear for them.
You will have people around you who will support you, but you cannot rely on them to fight your battle for you because it is yours, it’s yours to win. You are the strongest of people, because despite everything you still get up and you do whatever you have to do that day even with the weight of the world tied to your ankles.
Anyone who is suffering in silence, please, reach out to the people around you, go see a doctor, go see your options and what support there is out there for you! You can do this, you can keep going and you should never give up on yourself because you are the person you need the most.
If people no longer want to be in your in your life, if people cannot support you when you need them the most and if people disrespect you or your situation then they are not the people you need in your life. Let them go and don’t even ask them why, their answers will only disappoint you, just like their actions did.
I just wanted to reach out to those like me and let you know there is no shame in having a mental illness. You have got this and you will conquer all of your demons one day, it can’t rain forever and when it stops you will see your rainbow!
Stefi xoxo
